Guess who’s back!
And I can’t be more excited. This past few months have been insane and I’ll get into that, but first, I just want to thank everyone for being patient with me. I said I’d be back near labor day, and over a month later, I’m cropping back up to hit your blog feeds with some lessons learned, some new ideas, and some new projects that I just can’t wait to share with you.
This probably seems like a weird thing to say, but I don’t think I could have made it through the last few months knowing that I had blog posts to write, some health stuff going on, my full time job and a move happening.
When it rains it pours.
But I knew in May, when health stuff started to come up, that I was going to break if something didn’t give. So after going through and trying to find a way to keep going, I told myself the best thing to do would be to take the summer off and get back to it in the fall.
And, dear reader, taking a sabbatical was hands down the most kind and compassionate thing I could have ever done for myself and this business.
I’m coming back to this space with some astounding clarity and a real sense of purpose. I can’t recommend it highly enough, even if you just take a week off. And instead of continuing to gush, I’m going to tell you five things that I’ve learned about myself, my business, and my purpose all while on sabbatical.
How to relax. Have you ever heard the expression, “Wound up like an eight day clock”? Maybe it’s a southern thing, but that was me. Wound up so tight that my shoulders would ache because of the tension. Wound up so tight that I was snippy to my loved ones. And the worst part of it was, I wasn’t taking care of myself. I delved into the self-care world and have popped out the other side with a new understanding of my own needs. I actually had to learn how to relax, not veg out, and while I’m still not great about it, I feel like I have come so far in the last six months.
It’s ok to not want to do something and actually not do it. Now there are things in life that we can’t avoid some pretty shitty consequences if we don’t do something. Like paying rent, for example. I could choose not to pay my rent (which holy high rent in Chicagoland let me tell you) but eventually, I would get evicted. I would lose my home and me, hubs, and the cute cat would be on the street. So, I’m not talking about shirking responsibility here. I’m talking about going out when you really just want to sit in your underoos and watch Penny Dreadful. I’m talking about not wanting to cook dinner and be way more into ordering a pizza. Small victories, friends. Small victories. My new power word is “nope” and it has felt amazing.
Life can pass you by with your nose planted firmly on the grindstone. Maybe it’s a combination of being more mindful or not having the blog to worry about, but this one was astonishing. I have laughed more at the cute cat, played more with hubs, and felt more in sync with what is actually going on in my life than maybe ever. I’ve been delving deeper into this one than probably any other lesson because I’m noticing that I am a borderline workaholic. I have to have something to stress about, something to do, and because of that, I don’t enjoy my time not doing something.
Without your health, you have nothing. It’s old news, but somehow has eluded me my whole life. And now with some health stuff coming up and being chronic, I have to really think about things. So I’ve been making lifestyle shifts, feeling better, learning how to get ahead of falling off the wagon on things, and of course learning how to manage my stress. All of this combined leads to a happier, healthier me. And I need that just as much as the next person.
- Clarity comes in still, quiet moments. Sometimes, I feel like the Universe wields a 2x4. In fact, most times, I know it does. I have spent my whole life catching the metaphorical 2x4 in the head. So rather than continue to get battered, I’m learning to be still and quiet, and let the Universe speak instead of getting up on deck. I’m doing this through meditation. And off all the woo woo things that I do, mediation is by far the most mainstream and socially acceptable. And the really crazy part is, I can feel when I haven’t been meditating. I feel more scattered, I feel the looming 2x4, I feel wound up like an eight day clock. So basically, I don’t meditate, I get the board, I do meditate, my whole life feels better.
I’ll keep this short and sweet, but my summer was kind of great. I did some shadow work, I journaled A LOT, I got to sit on my patio, and I got to hang with some really amazing people. Summer was a success and super amazing.
Switching things up
So as I said earlier, I have gotten some clarity over the last few months. And I know now why this wasn’t working before. And I’ve got a damn good idea of how to fix it.
So what does this look like? It looks like an overhaul of my brand. It looks like an overhaul of my content, and it looks like an overhaul of who I am going to be serving.
Let’s talk about that.
So I’ve been gearing toward small, online business owners for a little over a year. I was putting out content (sporadically) and hoping that people could find me. I was implementing marketing tactics that didn’t feel right, didn’t work, and above all, left me standing there confused and frustrated.
Well no more.
Nicolina Mchugh is becoming Indie Holistic Creative.
This is where my love of design and marketing comes out to dance with all my woo and helps people who have the same kind of mindset. My woo belongs in my brand, at the front.
There will be more details coming and I have lots to do on the back end of things here, but I wanted to let you know, it’s a thing.
If you don’t want to hang, that’s cool, but change is coming and I don’t have anything solid for you yet, but I’ll get there. And you’ll be some of the first people to know.
It feels good to be back writing to you again, reader. It feels good to know that I have done something for myself and my business that has panned out so well. And above all, it feels good to feel good.
I’ll be back around shortly with more posts. Until then!